2 AM

its almost three actually.

nadia called me on saturday, it was soo random but it was nice to hear from someone familiar/close to sunway :) told me faiz is in town. i was like "wtf. he's here??" but i didnt say it on the phone. lol. she asked if i wanted to hangout but i had plans that day with my classmates. so we went out on sunday instead to the FUNFAIR aka FUNDERLAND!

Funderland is actually very close to RDS, the UCD exam hall. I didnt know. so i went to the city instead, to meet up w nadia & faiz somewhere near TCD. I didnt mind much coz i used the rambler for the bus rides.

Anyways. So we went to the funder thingy - I, nadia, nadia (faiz), faiz, alif, naim. First ride: "WILD MOUSE", it looked completely harmless, slow & dumb from down below, and pretty much like a ride for kids U12. But looks can be deceiving, no? It was friggin scary. abit. coz i sat the furthest out. I felt like i was going to fly off, so i grabbed on to the handle so hard, when i came down from the ride my legs were shaking. Haha. i bet ucu&muni wud make fun of me if they were there. ha ha ha.... the ride at first was...not at all slow. it was friggin speeding & turns u around everytime u reach the corners which makes u feel like the cart (w/e u call it) ure on is gonna fly off the rail.

The next ride, i dono wats the name. That ride scared the crap out of me. I was shaking even before the ride started. During the ride, I shouted till i couldnt shout anymore. omg, it turns u 360 up in the air while spinning u around and round and round... plus the flashy lights effect makes u uber dizzy. gah. after that ride, other rides were like nothing. Alif said his eyeballs went behind his head when the chairs were turned 360. Mine didnt, coz i closed my eyes. hahahaha..hah ha ha. nt funny. i tot i was gonna die during the numerous spins. When it has stopped everyone of us were uber dizzy, and our legs were painful coz it flew everywhere while we spinning on the ride. we sat down near the ferris wheel and stared at the roller coaster ride. but we didnt go on the roller coaster, everyone, with naim as an exception, was completely dizzy and wanted to throw up.

then we went inside. look arnd, look arnd.... but none of the rides interested me after the extreme spin i had. Lol. naim n faiz went on the ride that spins u so fast, that u'll be stuck to the walls when the floor disappears. I watched them, it looked fun. then the blokes played games. then we went for the bumper car. and then... hm. that was it.

enuf funderland.

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I realized i'm really boring. Not a negative thought, but its the truth. I'm nt someone who follows a particular crowd. nor do i stay in a particular click. U'll see me goin off alone to places like, err, the gym, shops, city, london, etc. Being alone don't really bother me, and sometimes, oddly, im really happy that i'm alone. I like helping ppl. I love sharing anything that i know/have, all aspects of it: random thoughts, study materials, food, etc. I know that some ppl dont like to share esp regarding studies, coz they're afraid that the ppl they share it with will excel more than they do (in m'sia its called being "KIASU"). But to me, honestly, i'm happy if the person excels than i do. at least u know that along the way that u helped them at some point.

when i was small, there was a day when my dad helped his fren, coz something was wrong with his car's battery. We were spose to go somewhere, so in my mind (that time) i thot that my dad shud just let his fren settle his own prob. I asked him "kenapa juga abah mau tolong dia?" and my dad replied "mestilah. dia kan kwn abah. kita mesti tlg org slalu" it was something like that. That time i was too young to understand what he was trying to tell me. But now i get it :)

its almost 4am. and i ate 1/3 of the maltesers. i gotta stop. toodles~

Why?

Hmm... Its weird reading to what others are saying and doing now. I mean those who i've known from the past and also those of the present. Though I'm not quite sure what point am i trying to make, their mentalities (expressed in pictures and "about me"s they've posted) keeps me wondering. Some questions that I have for them, probably i should answer myself first. But i do think i'm very much thinking clearly, better than i was before (esp in high sch and college), but still, in the process of learning :)


Why do they say "i haven't" when they actually have? Don't they know it hurts in many ways? What if others do the same to them? How would they feel? Why do they lie bluntly without thinking of the guilt that might proceed afterwards? Why shower those who don't deserve with compliments? Why give credits to those who don't earn it? What are they trying to do actually? Crushing you by flattering with compliments? Do they expect the same reaction from you? Like to give them compliments also in return?


When i think back, why does the scenario seem so familiar, i realize, its high sch all over again. Growing older day by day doesn't mean you'll grow wiser too. To be wise it all depends on oneself. I think everyone in their stable mind knows that. Because i've seen those who are older than me with the mentality of a 14 year old. And its not because they have mental problems or anything close to medical mental conditions. They choose to live with the minds of a 14 year old. Perhaps they think its cute.... or something (I dowana say thing that might hurt others, wait scratch that. I think I already did).


There are loads of whys and hows and whats going through my mind as days pass by (esp nowadays). Maybe not just me, you too perhaps. When i start looking back to see how I was, and what I have become today... how what i did in the past result in who i am today. It crossed my mind that "How will i think of myself after 20 years, when i start looking back again? What will I be after this? Where will I be after 10 years?"


I know i'm not making any sense to you. But it does to me. Because its like a self-conflict thing. Anyways. Perhaps, i should now start looking at today AND tomorrow, before i turn back again :)



A m i r a h .

What am I doing? Procrastinating.

First semester. OK, Not my best effort. How come I always think i know so little? How come it always seems NOT ENOUGH? And i can never, i mean really NEVER recall what I've read? And my exam starts tuesday. TUESDAY the 9th. I have no plans of repeating but im not sure that will happen. Urghh.

Nvm. I got another semester of the year. Just wait and see. Gym and books. and LIFE. Im gonna rock them.

Ive read this from somewhere, so I'm sharing it :)

"If you want the RAINBOW,

you gotta put up with the RAIN."

And there are times when you just have to walk away from those who keep you feeling down and bad about yourself.

They're the ones with issues they can't handle. So w/e.

Cheers.

my midterm exam results: B-, B, B+, A+. And personally, its not anywhere near good to me.

oh and i've been really pissed lately for reasons ive told my dad over the phone yesterday.

w/e la. after medsch i bet there'll be more of yous. thank you for preparing me at a very early stage.

Im flying without wings!

Okayy, i hvnt been blogging at all. LOL. mungkin kerana saya malass. haha

Irish wind = VERY STRONG. No wonder the westlife song. (Westlife is from ireland fyi) You can actually fly.without.wings. IF you're light enough :) I almost tripped on my own leg while i was walking to health science last week. All because of the wind. Wudve looked reeeeally stupid if i did tho. Ha ha.



Today, early morning it was all bright and sunny. Well, you wudve think "yay! great! the sun is out! Good day good day :)))" and smile all the way. But then, by 11am or so, i think there were showers and the sun decided to go hide. Pffh. And it was sooo friggin cold outside. less than 10 degrees C i think. Urgh. Irish weather. Even my spanish clasmates (all are irish except for me and sumaiyah) were complaining abt todays crappy weather.



I had musculoskeletal midterm this morning. Last thursday was biochem. MCQ: true, false or i dont know. Those are the options. LOL. Its a negative marking scheme. So its best that you be honest rather than simply answering, otherwise you'll lose marks for each question you answer wrong. Biochem was hard, musculo was confusing (esp the sections of cadavers). OK. maybe i havent been studying hard enough. Maybe i havent been looking at the right books/sources. Maybe i havent trying to properly undestand. Maybe i havnt make the effort. But i did try! Maybe not my best yet tho. Maybe i sleep too much. Or probly eat too much. Maybe i need more time to get a way better understanding of the whole picture and their relationships. (i see im giving tonnes of excuses with sentences starting with "maybe...." LOL) So, basically i dont expect much from my mid tearms tho. I only had a few past year samples,... wait! i had very little samples. So i didnt know what to expect and questions were going to be asked. NOW I KNOW. Jadi mama & abah, im sorry if my result is not up to standard. I have this thing of not doing so well for the first semesters (school, college and now uni. Haih) because of distractionsss. Mind you, i did very poorly for first sem in college. Aand i feel sory for myself that have not make use the best of my time in uni so far. I have learnt my lesson now to not waste time with food. & Sleeping :) LOL

I love organic strawberry yoghurt :)

Im still eating alot nowadays. My sister said im a polar bear. My mum says im fat (yes my dear mother, i could hear you commenting the other day HA HA HA). Im waiting for my dad's reaction next. Cos i havnt been SKYPE-ing with him for ages. I have no idea where he is everytime im online with my family. & i hvnt seen my other family members as well ever since first day of raya. Aaaaaand i wana see danish..

Anyways, i found out like 3 weeks back that my neighbour, is my spanish classmate, Miles. hehe. Last week his hsemates had some kindof party and they made so much noise til like...err 3 or 4-ish in the morning? So i told Miles abt it. & hes like "yeah, i kno! Its like they never sleep or do assignments! They'll invite up to 10 ppl at one time. Im the only whos normal in the hse!" Turns out that he doesnt join the crowd. Haha. Most of the time when he's home he locks himself in his room coz some drunk (the party ppl of his hse) might just come in to his room and switches on all the lights. And one his hsemates seemed to be 'pink' most of the time i see him. Miles said thats probly he was drunk the night before. LOL. Aaand today after spanish class he came up to me and said "Did my flatmates wake up this week?" LOL. Oh yeah, he's planning to move out of the student residence soon coz he needs peace and quiet. He's doin veterinary science, which is probly same as medicine, just different patients.. So probly the same load of studying required. Eh.. Why am i suddenly talking about Miles again? O ya, basically hes a nice irish bloke. Who recommended me the best pizzas you can get on campus. Haha tiada kaitan bah haha :)

Oh and the other neighbour, is a china guy studying in singapore. Zhen. He's here for an exchange thingy which i dono is called what. He's my Bord na Gaeilge classmate. Irish class classmate :) Yeh, its free, so why not learn right? Anyways Zhen's housemate is hot. Canadian or italian or sumthing. But point is, the hsemate is HOT. haha. And zhen is reaally nice :)))

Ok lah. Nanti saya blog lagi. I got hospital visit in the morning and site visit at 3pm. And i wana pay my sleeeeeping debtsss....NOW. Ehehehehii ;)

I love you~my family :) xoxoxo

Ayam ayam ayam

Listening to: Corinne Bailey Rae - Put your records on


Ohh friday. Finished class early today, 11am. wohoo. The past week was good :) bright and sunny.


The 2nd week of uni, was freshers week. All societies and clubs were busy with their booth, promoting with free food, giving away freebies, doing demos and other stuff la. Tonnes of parties and what not events were held. I signed up for islamic society (obviously), med society, jazz club and volunteer overseas. I missed the Stefan Galt gig on wednesday!! Argh! I forgot it was on wed. The next workshop by Bill Carrothers, i wont be going i guess. Not so much into the piano thingy. O ya, i joined KICKBOXING. Gagagaga :) Went to the city on saturday. Was supposed to go to some seniors house, they were selling stuff, but the bus didnt stop! Aaaaargh. Jadi saya dan housemate saya merajuk dan membawa diri ke city. LOL :) We planned to buy printers anyways, so thats what we did la. On sunday, right after doing laundry, we got a text from some senior that they're giving away free stuff, ie food supply, books, clothing, etc. So we (me & my housemates) went, and got 4books. Just what i need! The kakak insisted me on taking one of the baju. But all of them were size 12 and above. I didnt want any. Sangat besar. Since she insisted, waddeheck la kan, free stuff, so i just took the one she recommended. Terima kasih seniors, for all the stuff :)



This week, I went for kickboxing on tues and thurs. Was ok la. Didnt do anything much, basic kick+punch. And extreme stretching. The normal painful early morning feel is back the day after training. So far, its something like taekwondo. Nothing new to me yet. Tomorrow im gonna make my GARDA card, coz mine is expiring next week. Mahfan. Just now i went to xiao wei's place to send chicken. She told me about her chicken rice, which was not-so-chicken-rice-like. Then she was like "i got so many expiring food, potatoes, bla bla.." Sooo instead of letting the food go to waste, i made her mashed potato, hateefarah style yo. LOL :) Im glad she liked it. Seee, i CAN actually make something nice for people to eat. Hahaha! Since we have like endless supply of chicken, I think i MIGHT make something soon. Raya is like next week. Hmmm.. but what to cook? o_O



Female futsal for PMCSA thingy was cancelled. SAYA KECEWA.




A very good childhood friend of mine just lost her father. I found out about it last week, the day after he passed away. And i was restless for two days, so i baca yasin. Only then i was able to sleep and not think about it. When I was all hype and happy, there are people experiencing loss I just couldnt imagine.













Random:
Ive gained weight. Tidak tipu. SAYA SUDAH TIDAK MUAT SELUAR SAYA! Aduh. Inilah sebab makan free telampau banyak di bulan puasa. See my dear family, i have no trouble at all when it comes to food :)

Pink Cows?

My house slippers! I still have a thing for pink cows somehow :)

Anyhow, classes were not so interesting somehow this week. The only class that was exciting was CSI, dissection and osteology (I got to dissect, wohoo!). And spanish too. I sabe algunas palabras y frases simples en español. First aid was a total blur, the girl talked so fast (i understood what she said) and it was so much to remember for the first lesson. And it was a 3-hour class sumore. AND its going to come out for exams. Aiyaiyai. The sri lankan lecturer didnt stopped walking around, circling the whole class. Ive never listen to such vague bio presentation. If you've been taught by ms nesa, you'll know. I'm not complaining or anything, it just that this is kindof the first impression of medic studies, so yeah. But theres still next week, and the week after, and the following. Who knows it might get interesting in the weeks to come. Veremos :)

O ya, i got some books from the library before they were all taken. Phew. I didnt have class on wednesday, so i went book hunting at the health science lib (i searched wher the books were shelved at on tues evening). Since all of the latest edition of the recommended books are gone, i took the older ones. They're still the same right? Just different book cover. But i'm only allowed to borrow them for a week. Haih. There'll be a booksale thingy soon, so i guess i'll wait for that. I dont want my parents to send the books here all the way from malaysia. Very mahfan. So i'll try to get them here first. Peduli la ba, second hand pun second hand laa.

On tuesday evening, i was in the library till quite late. I didnt realize the time. I think it was about err.. a quarter to nine...? Gelap suda time tu. Suda la hujan. Aiyo. Thank god i met John in the lib. He was kind enough to actually send me back all the way to Belgrove, eventho his way home was a different route. THANKS JOHN! I'll remember to bring someone along the next time im goin to the lib.

Going to the city AGAIN tomoro. Got buka puasa at seniors house. I'll be getting a few things too la. Files, gloves, a fan heater (probably, since my heater rosak. ive complained, still hasnt been fixed. Apparently, there are tonnes of heater rosak di belgrove ni), papers for printing and some other stuff that i actually really need.

Estoy cansada. I wanna sleep. Hasta el próximo post, adiós ;-)

Btw, i'll be updating my blog on weekends only. Exceptions: special occasions :). Dan saya tidak mengambil banyak gambar, sebab saya akan berada di sini 2 tahun setengah, i dont think things will change much. So i still have time to take pics.

Rainbows everyday

Hello Ireland :)

After the adventurous 32 hour flight we had from KL, it's a relieve we actually made it here. Coz the plane from KL to amsterdam had to stop in Berlin due to a slight problem. One of the engines broke down after we took off from KL. And the pilot only told us about the engine like an hour before we stopped at berlin. He said it was OK for such plane to run with only three engines left, but will consume more petrol. Best kan the pilot? And even before that, our the flight to amsterdam was delayed. TWICE. Supposed to terbang at 11.40pm (KL time), then delayed to 12.30am, then 1am.

Arrive in Berlin at 7am local time. Had to take our luggage. Lined up to check in again for about, errr, 3 hours? We managed to get the 10.40am flight to amsterdam. So we had to quickly go board the plane. Didnt even get the chance to round2 berlin airport. Sigh. And the security checks are SUPER FRIGGIN TIGHT. Buka kasut, buka tali pinggang, buka jaket, bagi keluar laptop, poket bagi kosong, body checks using metal detectors. Nothing like Malaysia truly asia kan? Sangat bagus *clap clap*. Yi Jet was brought to the security room, cause the berlin security thought his laptop was a bomb (HAHA).

KLM gave us some vouchers when we got to amsterdam for the delays caused. So the others went makan, where i was super full. I had been eating non-stop since i got on the plane from KL. KLM's food SUCK. But eating kills time, no? :) HAHA.

5th day in UCD (it's sunday 1am already) . UCD is massive. SANGAT BESAR. Its still summer here, so the days are long. Oh, and there are barely sunny days. Yeah, summer with little sun. My thoughts of summer sangat la salah. In ireland la of course. So far, there's plenty of rain and never ending wind. So when the sun is out, there's rainbow. Btw, did i mentioned that the window in my room have gaps on the sides? And my heater is not working? And the study lamp has gone kapoot? Yeaaa. Basically, everytime the wind blows i for sure will know. My room is like a fridge. If i put cold milk in my room, it will stay forever cold. Stupid heater. Then suddenly one day, (on wednesday i think) i was soo cold, i lost it. I took some toilet rolls and stuff it all at the gaps of the window. Very smart eyh? LOL. But my room is still cold. Sebab no heater. Bodoh. Haih. Mum called that very day and told me to go buy warm clothes. She must be worried. Hmm.

The seniors had organized activities for us and helped us in finding our ways in UCD. And later today, they're going to bring us to the city. Show us places and stuff. Jadi, i better go and sleep, 1.30am dy. I'll post some more later. Toodles!

Irish guys during the International reception.
I have no idea what instrument the guy at the far right is playing.