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being a scholar is not fun. being a normal student is fun.
either you get to th cut-off point, or you dont. thats it.

so the plan is simple isnt it? for you to get to the cut-off point, what must you do? studyy. yes studyyy~ other matters are all sorted out for you.

but the bond is long tho. i have 10 years. yes, 10 long years of public service to look forward to IF , god willing, i pass the whole thing. but some guy told me its okay to have long bonds with th government. why? because you get to meet people. by meeting people, you build connections. and by the time you end your bond and upon up your own, you'll have a long list of usual patients. they'll come to you, recommend you to their friends and family. think about it; a brand new clinic opened in front of your house and a usual doctor whom you see. which one would you choose?

so there it is.

err.. this post was meant to pacify my nerves. i think im failing subjects which i shouldn't and doing well in those that i shouldn't be. my last exam i only got 11 points when i should be getting 12. so yea, im pessimistic about where im heading now.