5 hours googling.

Ive been sitting here for 5 hours, searching for cheap flights, trains and hotels/apartment for March.

Tomorrow: Genetics, Renal - J.L., Heart 3 - J.T. and GIT blood supply - Dr.R.E.

Its 2.14am. Class starts at 9am.

I'm bored.

Dear Calender

I didn't know it was CNY yesterday.

Obviously I havn't been checking out the dates of annual events.


So, whoever celebrates it (esp to the chinese side of my family)
HAPPY CNY! :)



I miss making fun of Danish watching lion dances. Lol.
I miss you Danish :)

Body. Sooore.

I'm eating like a pregnant lady. Damn. I gotta have self control. I don't wanna be, um, 55kg above. That would mean me being seriously fat. Not that i'm soo much concerned abt being fat, just that it wud mean i have to get new pants. Again. I hate shopping for pants... Bec i have short legs.

Bec of thursday kickboxing, my whole body is aching, esp my legs, pectoralis and arm muscles. And i dont feel like getting out of bed bec it hurts moving. And hard to pray properly, you cant bend down properly, and you cannot not-stress your muscles. Im gonna skip tuesdays kickboxing.

1st week

After genetics class, before i fell asleep in the library.

Non-productive. I donno why i felt tired in every class. Couldnt concentrate. I volunteered to help for the 'islamic awareness week' event. Im in-charge of the promotion of halal food fest/feast. w/e. Me & another classmate of mine. Had a meeting the other day, but i didnt jot down anything so basicly i'm clueless now. But ive got one chef so far. Yeah baby! 9 more to find. wuhuuu! And i seriouly need help in the promoting part. I dont know anyone from other unis. Since I've lost my socialising skills, this promoting job would (probably) be a good start of getting it back.

So a friend of mine asked me to join his team for futbol/futsal (w/e) every thursday evening. AN OFFER I COULDNT REJECT! I havnt played in a loong time! Who cares if having a girl on the team is like getting the handicap token?? Well i do. He told me, if we have 2 girls, and if a girl scores, its counted as 3 goals. wtf.

So now, i have: volunteering, kickboxing, gym, futbol :D i like kicking balls. Though i'm not good at it. I just gotta prepare for my leg being strapped, and the long physiotherapy sessions. As usual.


I need to, uh, do something useful now. w/e that means. Toodles~!

Too loud. Shut up.

My neighbours are getting drunk. And the girls with too little clothing are screaming like mad outside our door and kitchen. MY SLEEP WAS DISTURBED! I was spose to wake up at 12.

"People are all the same, and we only get judged by what we do, personality reflects name. And if i'm ugly then so are you, so are you"

i can hear music beats from my window....ITS FIRST DAY OF TERM!! SHUT UP! i had boring classes today. so. please. shut up. esp those screaming girls singing "give it to me"

a m i r a h

Too much bananas

Start of sem. Three lectures. I almost slept in two lectures! Genetics and vascular. Almost! But i didn't :D weee i'm gonna stick to the resolution thing....for at least three months.

Oh, and i got tagged by alif in facebook. Elle's surprise bday party pics. I looked..the same. ahaha

Its 7pm. I'm going to bed. Gnite :D

My sister tagged me.

RULES

Write :

1. Your name/ identification name / username etc.

2. Write anything using either your left/ right hands

3. Most favorite alphabets

4. Less favorite alphabets.

5. "The quick brown fox jumps over the lazy dog"

6. Tag 5 more persons/ bloggers

Was I suppose to just rewrite the questions?

2 AM

its almost three actually.

nadia called me on saturday, it was soo random but it was nice to hear from someone familiar/close to sunway :) told me faiz is in town. i was like "wtf. he's here??" but i didnt say it on the phone. lol. she asked if i wanted to hangout but i had plans that day with my classmates. so we went out on sunday instead to the FUNFAIR aka FUNDERLAND!

Funderland is actually very close to RDS, the UCD exam hall. I didnt know. so i went to the city instead, to meet up w nadia & faiz somewhere near TCD. I didnt mind much coz i used the rambler for the bus rides.

Anyways. So we went to the funder thingy - I, nadia, nadia (faiz), faiz, alif, naim. First ride: "WILD MOUSE", it looked completely harmless, slow & dumb from down below, and pretty much like a ride for kids U12. But looks can be deceiving, no? It was friggin scary. abit. coz i sat the furthest out. I felt like i was going to fly off, so i grabbed on to the handle so hard, when i came down from the ride my legs were shaking. Haha. i bet ucu&muni wud make fun of me if they were there. ha ha ha.... the ride at first was...not at all slow. it was friggin speeding & turns u around everytime u reach the corners which makes u feel like the cart (w/e u call it) ure on is gonna fly off the rail.

The next ride, i dono wats the name. That ride scared the crap out of me. I was shaking even before the ride started. During the ride, I shouted till i couldnt shout anymore. omg, it turns u 360 up in the air while spinning u around and round and round... plus the flashy lights effect makes u uber dizzy. gah. after that ride, other rides were like nothing. Alif said his eyeballs went behind his head when the chairs were turned 360. Mine didnt, coz i closed my eyes. hahahaha..hah ha ha. nt funny. i tot i was gonna die during the numerous spins. When it has stopped everyone of us were uber dizzy, and our legs were painful coz it flew everywhere while we spinning on the ride. we sat down near the ferris wheel and stared at the roller coaster ride. but we didnt go on the roller coaster, everyone, with naim as an exception, was completely dizzy and wanted to throw up.

then we went inside. look arnd, look arnd.... but none of the rides interested me after the extreme spin i had. Lol. naim n faiz went on the ride that spins u so fast, that u'll be stuck to the walls when the floor disappears. I watched them, it looked fun. then the blokes played games. then we went for the bumper car. and then... hm. that was it.

enuf funderland.

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I realized i'm really boring. Not a negative thought, but its the truth. I'm nt someone who follows a particular crowd. nor do i stay in a particular click. U'll see me goin off alone to places like, err, the gym, shops, city, london, etc. Being alone don't really bother me, and sometimes, oddly, im really happy that i'm alone. I like helping ppl. I love sharing anything that i know/have, all aspects of it: random thoughts, study materials, food, etc. I know that some ppl dont like to share esp regarding studies, coz they're afraid that the ppl they share it with will excel more than they do (in m'sia its called being "KIASU"). But to me, honestly, i'm happy if the person excels than i do. at least u know that along the way that u helped them at some point.

when i was small, there was a day when my dad helped his fren, coz something was wrong with his car's battery. We were spose to go somewhere, so in my mind (that time) i thot that my dad shud just let his fren settle his own prob. I asked him "kenapa juga abah mau tolong dia?" and my dad replied "mestilah. dia kan kwn abah. kita mesti tlg org slalu" it was something like that. That time i was too young to understand what he was trying to tell me. But now i get it :)

its almost 4am. and i ate 1/3 of the maltesers. i gotta stop. toodles~

Why?

Hmm... Its weird reading to what others are saying and doing now. I mean those who i've known from the past and also those of the present. Though I'm not quite sure what point am i trying to make, their mentalities (expressed in pictures and "about me"s they've posted) keeps me wondering. Some questions that I have for them, probably i should answer myself first. But i do think i'm very much thinking clearly, better than i was before (esp in high sch and college), but still, in the process of learning :)


Why do they say "i haven't" when they actually have? Don't they know it hurts in many ways? What if others do the same to them? How would they feel? Why do they lie bluntly without thinking of the guilt that might proceed afterwards? Why shower those who don't deserve with compliments? Why give credits to those who don't earn it? What are they trying to do actually? Crushing you by flattering with compliments? Do they expect the same reaction from you? Like to give them compliments also in return?


When i think back, why does the scenario seem so familiar, i realize, its high sch all over again. Growing older day by day doesn't mean you'll grow wiser too. To be wise it all depends on oneself. I think everyone in their stable mind knows that. Because i've seen those who are older than me with the mentality of a 14 year old. And its not because they have mental problems or anything close to medical mental conditions. They choose to live with the minds of a 14 year old. Perhaps they think its cute.... or something (I dowana say thing that might hurt others, wait scratch that. I think I already did).


There are loads of whys and hows and whats going through my mind as days pass by (esp nowadays). Maybe not just me, you too perhaps. When i start looking back to see how I was, and what I have become today... how what i did in the past result in who i am today. It crossed my mind that "How will i think of myself after 20 years, when i start looking back again? What will I be after this? Where will I be after 10 years?"


I know i'm not making any sense to you. But it does to me. Because its like a self-conflict thing. Anyways. Perhaps, i should now start looking at today AND tomorrow, before i turn back again :)



A m i r a h .

What am I doing? Procrastinating.

First semester. OK, Not my best effort. How come I always think i know so little? How come it always seems NOT ENOUGH? And i can never, i mean really NEVER recall what I've read? And my exam starts tuesday. TUESDAY the 9th. I have no plans of repeating but im not sure that will happen. Urghh.

Nvm. I got another semester of the year. Just wait and see. Gym and books. and LIFE. Im gonna rock them.

Ive read this from somewhere, so I'm sharing it :)

"If you want the RAINBOW,

you gotta put up with the RAIN."

And there are times when you just have to walk away from those who keep you feeling down and bad about yourself.

They're the ones with issues they can't handle. So w/e.

Cheers.

my midterm exam results: B-, B, B+, A+. And personally, its not anywhere near good to me.

oh and i've been really pissed lately for reasons ive told my dad over the phone yesterday.

w/e la. after medsch i bet there'll be more of yous. thank you for preparing me at a very early stage.

Im flying without wings!

Okayy, i hvnt been blogging at all. LOL. mungkin kerana saya malass. haha

Irish wind = VERY STRONG. No wonder the westlife song. (Westlife is from ireland fyi) You can actually fly.without.wings. IF you're light enough :) I almost tripped on my own leg while i was walking to health science last week. All because of the wind. Wudve looked reeeeally stupid if i did tho. Ha ha.



Today, early morning it was all bright and sunny. Well, you wudve think "yay! great! the sun is out! Good day good day :)))" and smile all the way. But then, by 11am or so, i think there were showers and the sun decided to go hide. Pffh. And it was sooo friggin cold outside. less than 10 degrees C i think. Urgh. Irish weather. Even my spanish clasmates (all are irish except for me and sumaiyah) were complaining abt todays crappy weather.



I had musculoskeletal midterm this morning. Last thursday was biochem. MCQ: true, false or i dont know. Those are the options. LOL. Its a negative marking scheme. So its best that you be honest rather than simply answering, otherwise you'll lose marks for each question you answer wrong. Biochem was hard, musculo was confusing (esp the sections of cadavers). OK. maybe i havent been studying hard enough. Maybe i havent been looking at the right books/sources. Maybe i havent trying to properly undestand. Maybe i havnt make the effort. But i did try! Maybe not my best yet tho. Maybe i sleep too much. Or probly eat too much. Maybe i need more time to get a way better understanding of the whole picture and their relationships. (i see im giving tonnes of excuses with sentences starting with "maybe...." LOL) So, basically i dont expect much from my mid tearms tho. I only had a few past year samples,... wait! i had very little samples. So i didnt know what to expect and questions were going to be asked. NOW I KNOW. Jadi mama & abah, im sorry if my result is not up to standard. I have this thing of not doing so well for the first semesters (school, college and now uni. Haih) because of distractionsss. Mind you, i did very poorly for first sem in college. Aand i feel sory for myself that have not make use the best of my time in uni so far. I have learnt my lesson now to not waste time with food. & Sleeping :) LOL

I love organic strawberry yoghurt :)

Im still eating alot nowadays. My sister said im a polar bear. My mum says im fat (yes my dear mother, i could hear you commenting the other day HA HA HA). Im waiting for my dad's reaction next. Cos i havnt been SKYPE-ing with him for ages. I have no idea where he is everytime im online with my family. & i hvnt seen my other family members as well ever since first day of raya. Aaaaaand i wana see danish..

Anyways, i found out like 3 weeks back that my neighbour, is my spanish classmate, Miles. hehe. Last week his hsemates had some kindof party and they made so much noise til like...err 3 or 4-ish in the morning? So i told Miles abt it. & hes like "yeah, i kno! Its like they never sleep or do assignments! They'll invite up to 10 ppl at one time. Im the only whos normal in the hse!" Turns out that he doesnt join the crowd. Haha. Most of the time when he's home he locks himself in his room coz some drunk (the party ppl of his hse) might just come in to his room and switches on all the lights. And one his hsemates seemed to be 'pink' most of the time i see him. Miles said thats probly he was drunk the night before. LOL. Aaand today after spanish class he came up to me and said "Did my flatmates wake up this week?" LOL. Oh yeah, he's planning to move out of the student residence soon coz he needs peace and quiet. He's doin veterinary science, which is probly same as medicine, just different patients.. So probly the same load of studying required. Eh.. Why am i suddenly talking about Miles again? O ya, basically hes a nice irish bloke. Who recommended me the best pizzas you can get on campus. Haha tiada kaitan bah haha :)

Oh and the other neighbour, is a china guy studying in singapore. Zhen. He's here for an exchange thingy which i dono is called what. He's my Bord na Gaeilge classmate. Irish class classmate :) Yeh, its free, so why not learn right? Anyways Zhen's housemate is hot. Canadian or italian or sumthing. But point is, the hsemate is HOT. haha. And zhen is reaally nice :)))

Ok lah. Nanti saya blog lagi. I got hospital visit in the morning and site visit at 3pm. And i wana pay my sleeeeeping debtsss....NOW. Ehehehehii ;)

I love you~my family :) xoxoxo