"She says she doesn't gossip, she points fingers on who are so-called "gossipers" as if she's the most innocent one. Who's the one spreading the stories actually?
She talks about other people behind their backs, do you think she never talk about you? Does she even have real friends?
If guys are present, they become priority to her while you become non-existent. And when the males give her bullshit, only then she comes running to you. You call that a 'friend'?
She expects you to listen to all her stories. Amirah, she doesn't even bother to listen to yours. Why do you even bother anymore?"
At first I was angry thinking about all these.
But when I think about it again, I feel sorry for you.
I hope you read this.
And I wish you all the best in life.
Tuesday, April 2, 2013
All this while ye never paid attention to whatever I have said.
But you expect me to listen to everything you said.
Ye say I don't talk about personal things, but when I do you don't listen.
All this while I have been patient.
Because I believe that....
Today I've had enough.
How did it feel when I totally ignored you when you talked today?
And the thought of my parents dying makes me restless.
I feel disturbed to even imagining post-parents-dying scenarios.
But still, people will die on you, sooner or later.
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At the age of 20, my mother was already earning on her own, and planning on her future family.
At a young age of 12, maybe even younger, my grandmother was already earning money the hard way, helped her mother raised her siblings.
I am currently 22, the eldest child in my family, and ashamed to admit that I am still depending on my parents to continue living, everyday. Be it financially and in life decisions.
Yes, I am ashamed. And I am scared.
What if my parents die on me before I even finish medical school?
How do I go on with life from there?
How am I to support my siblings?
Eventually people will die on you, sooner or later.
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God, family and friends.
When people walk out on you, what you have left are God, family and friends.
When your "significant other" walks out on you, what you have left are God, family and friends.
God and family.
When your friends walk out on you, what you have left are God and family.
God.
When your friends walk out on you, when your family disowns you, what you have left is God.
When you don't believe in God, what else is left for you?
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Sometimes, people take FAMILY (let's consider a selected number of quality friends as family as well)for granted.
Sometimes they put forward other individuals before their family.
Sometimes they put forward their "significant other", listens to everything the "significant other" says, ignoring their own family.
Maybe these people have forgotten.
Who gave birth to you?
Who raised you?
Who put food on your table?
Who struggled to put you through school?
Who struggled finding ways to make sure you get better from your sickness?
Who struggled to make sure you get the best in life as you grew up?
Who helped you the most when you were in trouble?
Who stayed when others walk out on you?
Your "significant other" that you listen so attentively to?
That "significant other" who you put forward so much before others who were already in your life before the "significant other" came?
Does your "significant other" remind you that the world is temporary?
Does your "significant other" remind you to be steadfast in your faith, daily prayers and in doing good deeds?
"Significant otherS" come and go.
"Significant otherS" may cheat on you.
You'll have a list of "significant otherS" throughout your life.
To love others when it encourages more love towards God, masyaAllah, is a blessing.
Does your "love" towards your "significant other" make you feel that way?
It's the mistakes of the past that made me the person I am today.
So, I don't regret anything that has happened back then. I just hope I've learned enough from it - to not repeat it again, and to take the lesson in becoming a better person than before.
