Are you feeling me feeling you?

Life is about having to decide, make choices, all the time. Sometimes we make some wrong turns and feel regretful. Why the heck did I do that? I should have did this instead. Why didn't I think of that earlier? OR in relationships context: Why did I ever liked him/her? I can't believe I thought he/she's my friend for life! Why? Why? Why??

GOOD NEWS! S'okay to feel that way. Who doesn't make mistakes? We all do at some point :)

'Regret' is a valid reason to feel down & the need for some solitary moment..............for a while. I stress, FOR A WHILE.

Life's short, why watch life pass you by? For you to spend it feeling sad (for a looooong time) is such a waste!

Point is....

ONE - FACE YOUR MISTAKE, don't runaway from it! You've evaluated & realized it was the wrong choice

TWO - Take time to forgive yourself (before you forgive, if the situation involves another party, others) Regret, indenial are all part of the road to recovery

THREE - Put it in the past, try not no make the same mistake in the future

FOUR - Shake it off. Pull yourself together. Move on, i.e. there's always a solution to anything; nothing is impossible anyway, right?

p/s: By solution, I don't mean bitching around about your problem. Instead, find ways (still, not bitching) that you know will help you get over whatever you did. Finds things to do, things that make you feel better and happy.

For some, the mistake(s) hit them hard. Traumatized, feeling feeble, like not being able to stand up & face the world anymore. Well that's bullshit. Tell them they're being over dramatic.

 Kalau kau mau mengarut jadi over dramatic sebab telampau cantik,

dipersilakan terjun bangunan sekarang

I'm kidding, it's part of the recovery process, they've been hurt, so please be supportive.

And you, yes YOU, the hurting one. Be considerate to those who are trying to help you, they might offer all they can to you, but remember they have their lives to live too. Feeling hurt doesn't give you the privilege to take advantage of those who care. They might be friends of 20 years, or a best friend who loves you dearly, or all else of similar types. Give them a call/confide to them when you REALLY need them only. If you keep them on the phone 24/7, please get this registered in your brain, they do get bored you know, hearing the same thing again and again.

Anyway, talking about recovery. You might not be able to stand up on your own at first, no worries, you're only human. We understand. A helping hand(s) might be needed to help you stand up again, to be your crutch, your support system. Hopefully you've been surrounding yourself with good friends, if you have none, then there's always your family.

 
The thing is, even if there's a gazillion hands helping you but you're not even helping yourself then there's no point. If you won't let yourself recover, then save us the trouble & don't bother wasting the time of others trying to help you. Yes, that's harsh but, that is also the truth. So, you decide which route you'd like to embark on after a fall down. You choose your destination.

It may take 1 week, 2 weeks, 1 month, 2 months and for some, even more. Different trauma impact have different refractory & recovery period. Give the recovery period some time to work its miracle. Time does heal, you know :)

I just hope it doesn't take you too long to get back up on your feet and running, because you might miss out on the best of life during those sad sappy moment of yours!

How would you describe your personality?

Random and volatile

Ask me anything

There’s something that I want to say,
But I feel I don’t know how.
Still I just can’t hold it one more day,
So I think I'll let it out.

You’re on my mind more than I may sure
You’re in my heart more than you may know

And the last thing that I want,
Is for you to fall apart.
  Your future will be clearer,
I want you to remember.

In each tear
there’s a lesson, (there’s a lesson)
Makes you wiser than before (wiser)
Makes you stronger than you know (stronger)
and each tear (each tear)
Brings you closer to your dreams
No mistake, no heartbreak
Can take away what you're meant to be

We can’t change the things,
That we've done that’s in our past.
But fighting won’t get us anywhere.
So if you want, then here’s my hand

Every night there is one thing I do
I bow my head and I pray for you (pray for you)
And the last thing that I want,
Is for you to fall apart
Your future will be clearer
I want you to remember

In each tear
there’s a lesson,
Makes you wiser than before
Makes you stronger than you know
and each tear
Brings you closer to your dreams
No mistake, no heartbreak
Can take away what you're meant to be

You're much more than a struggle that you go through
From nine till five I open things so let it go
You’re not a victim,
you're more like a winner
And you’re not a defeat
you’re more like a queen

In each tear
there’s a lesson,
Makes you wiser than before
Makes you stronger than you know
and each tear
Brings you closer to your dreams
No mistakes, no heartbreaks
Can take away what your meant to be

No no we can’t be held down
No no oh noo I I I can’t held down
You you you can’t be held down
We we we can’t be held down

Love
It makes you so much stronger
It makes you so much wiser
In each tear
And you're so close to your dreams, and
No mistake, no heartbreak
can take away what you’re meant to be 

 x

It's 2.30 a.m.

See the aviators on her?

It's RayBans.

I want that....

in this colour: 

Its 2 a.m.

You've cut the ties.

So I'm returning the favour by burning the bridges.

Toodles! :)

Hello JayPark ♥

Jay's part:

Everybody works hard for their goals to achieve
But like the ocean is sea, man, the motion is free
So nothing ever adds up the way we want it to
I guess my math teacher was just a substitute
Everybody hits a rough patch turbulence in the sky
Life's a cow I made a burger
And I'm serving it with some fries
Gotta make do with the cards that are dealt
And though it's hard as hell
I know that God will help
Cause although I live in Seattle
It's not always gonna rain
There'll be some sunny days coming up this way
Everybody's wanting to see me struggling
Running away from pain
But I know the wondrous things are coming to visit again someday
So no worries I just stand here with a smirk on my face
Although I know some people out there throwin dirt on my name
But it's all good
Still show em some love
Cause unlike that girl from the movie
I ain't holdin no grudge

♥♥♥♥♥♥

Catchy song. I like.

For you,
Park Jaebeom xx

My mama said......

I was in the car with my mother between 7pm and 8.30pm, we had the usual random conversations. And I opened up to her about some stuff that I know she was/is rigid about when I was younger (I think she still stiffens up when I talk about this; mothers, they can't help it but to be over protective) and her response though more open than before, her advice that came after her answer hit me hard. Not that hard, but hard enough to made quiet.


I know I disagree with her opinions/suggestions alot, but this one I know she was right. Very right.


My mama said "Stay away from these things, those people. You think they think the way you do? When jealousy strikes, it encourages alot of things; most of them idiotic actions. You never know, even if they are your friends. It can be the worse of things."

From where I'm standing, I don't see anything wrong because I've drawn the lines, and I have no intentions of crossing them.



But I'll keep what she said in mind.



Then the topic changed when she went all frantic when I said "Hmm I think that's my ex-boyfriend's current girlfriend lah mom"
She went all "Apa?? Hehhh bila lagi kau ada ex-boyfriend ni????"

Hahahahahahahaa thaaaaanks mom, i love yoouuh xoxo.

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p/s: Remember I promised the loooong post after exams? I've wrote it ages ago, on the 1st of June. But when I read it back, it contained way too much negative points of me (though it was quite a while after exams, I was still very emotional), so I decided not to post it up. Sorry.

The last time i checked: Ana, Mia and Ed; they're classified under mental illness.

(Sebenarnya di sini tadi ada insert videoclip lagu pixie lott dari youtube, tapi bila fikir balik mungkin ada orang akan salah sangka jika lihat lirik lagu itu, so I removed it. Saja mahu bagitau)

Harini rasa happy sebab baru perasan blog anak mat nor rupa-rupanya sudah ada update.....sebulan yang lalu!! Setelah hampir setahun tiada update. Wohh I rekomen you all baca blog dia lawak gila ah mampu menceriakan hati no matter what weh. Mula-mula dulu Hatim A.R. yang introduce blog anak mat nor ni kat I masa exam dulu, I ketawa rasanya boleh bergegar dunia (ok, hyperbole), hah ketawa banyak sangat tekeluar ilmu sampai exam terkial-kial menjawab. Cis.


Oh by the way, this is not the "long entry" that I said I'll be posting after exams. That one shall come laaaaater.


Sekarang mahu bagitahu, muka saya penuh dengan breakouts (acne) sana sini. Memang bengong betul, masalah keremajaan ni kick in lambat, I sudah in my 20's baru nak start breakouts banyak gila sana sini heshhh. Rupa saya sekarang macam ni:

Eh eh bukan bukan ini bukan saya, tapi cameron diaz.

Saja mahu bagitau, cameron diaz yang cun ni pun ada masalah acne juga, macam saya, tapi saya tidak cun macam dia (cewah jadi kalau kau ada massive breakouts lagi kau mahu bajet cameron diaz, amirah? perghh).

And I thought I was having breakouts haritu sebab probably it's a post-period thing, makan tidak jaga (eh sejak bila pula pandai jaga makan?) and because of exams. Sekali sudah habis exams pun, seems like they're not showing any signs of going away. Makin banyak ada lah. Mahu buat apa pun tidak tahu. Its like a mass of invasive inflamed sebaceous glands just going everywhere on my face. I don't know what went wrong, I cleanse my face, I use the usual stuff that i put on my face, haven't introduced anything unsual or new.

Kalau mama nampak mesti dia marah sebab fikir saya tidak jaga kulit baik-baik. (T_T)

Ok saya emo. Period tidak lama lagi........mahu pergi makan sekarang. Btw, it's 2am now.

Salam.

Some probably choose to ignore, but still.

There is such a thing as beyond looks.

♥

 mungkin muka macam ni tapi hati dia suci murni;

bak kata orangputih: Looks can be deceiving.

 mungkin muka lawa badan buff *drools* macam ni

tapi otak di lutut, perangai buruk, hati busuk;

makin lama kenal, makin tahu perangai, makin tidak mahu. haaa.

p/s: whoever the dudes are in both pictures, no harm/insult was intended, I got your pictures off google. Sue google, not me please.

♥, xoxo.